I was having a conversation with a lovely friend of mine, the other evening. we were on the topic of fear and how fear can almost paralyze us, until we bring reality to the situation.

Here's a few things that came to mind during our talk.
1. For me...Fear mostly occurs at night while everyone but me is asleep.

I don't think this is ironic. It doesn't surprise me that when I'm most vulnerable and can't see in the physical, that I would be vulnerable and not able to see in spiritual realm...

2. Fear takes us to an alternate reality...lets say a "spiritual realm" Eph 6.

I always think of fear as something not from God. And to tell you the truth, I still don't think if God is going to tell you something he's not going to push you to do it out fear. Saying that, I think our flesh can be scared of the Supernatural. I think God uses fear to draw is into the spiritual realm....some of my most amazing quiet times are are at three in the morning when I have been kept awake by fear.

3. It is always the right thing to read the bible and fight and pray against the fear, but if your going to sit and stew in your fear, you must GET UP and focus your mjind on something else.

I know this from experience. I will pray...pray...pray...meditate, focus, sing, and somehow my brain doesn't comprehend that I am TRYING to get the fear off my mind. For me, sometimes it takes...getting up and going to get a cup of coffee, turning all the lights on, watching TV, or waking someone up to bring you back to reality. But...always choose to read the word and pray first.

4. If you are fearful...remember to listen for the Spirit.

Just like when God called Samuel, when we are awakened from our sleep we must listen and see if God is saying something to you.

This is just a few things on my mind the last couple of days...

peace in the middle east

love is...

I'm a tad bit sad this evening as I write. I wish I could make everyone love each other. I wish everyone chose Christ over the world, and I wish I could make Christmas perfect. You know what's interesting? The more I try, the harder it gets.

On a completely other note, I had a conversation with someone this morning about Calvinism. I have always found that when it came to Calvinism or Armenian ism I have always fell nearer the Calvinist side. But we were talking about the "Elect(God's Choice not man's) " and I just can't find in my Spirit a place that finds peace with that theology.

I began to think about the fact that...you have to choose to be a Calvinist, or any other belief system. You have to weigh the Word and figure out what you believe. There is a choice. Life is a choice. God does know the outcome, but he created us in a way that he could bring his wisdom and thoughts to our thoughts, to draw us into a relationship. I just can't be down with the fact that God is a dictator. God is Lover, a bridegroom, all knowing and powerful, but Dictator...I just don't believe that.

Calvinism and Armenian ism are just two beliefs two men came up with. In the end, it's theology, it's not the Word of God. It's two ways of believing not the Word inspired by God himself. I think the only book that's inspired only by God and not any other thing is the Bible. No Flesh...God's word.

Peace in the Middle East.

An ol' Ozzy moment

I woke up this morning and I read My Utmost for His Highest. I had previously read this entry before, probably Dec. 9th, last year. Oswald Chambers said something that hasn't left my thoughts since reading it. He said,

"It is the good that hates the best, and the higher up you get in the scale of the natural virtues, the more intense is the opposition of Christ......Beware of refusing to go the funeral of your own independence."

So in essence it's not my sinful nature that keeps me from the Lord it's the "easiness" of complacency. What's funny is, it's always been easy for me to choose the high road over the world. But I have noticed a change in that as I have gotten older. Lowered standards in an attempt to be accepted. Right now, it's mostly a battle of my mind rarely turning into action. But if I keep up my inaction this situation, I think I will find myself, "of the world".

I guess I'm a blogger.

I was reading through some of my past journal entries recently and decided that it was time for me to get my thoughts on life out in the open. So I started this blog. For me this will be a release from the ridiculousness of life and escape to my own little world of revelations from God or...random thoughts...either way. I hope this can be encouraging to anyone who reads it.