Change

Nine months ago, nearly to do the day, my life fell into a season of change, and it's changing and changing, and changing. Nothing seems to be the same anymore except for one thing, one constant, and that would be, of course, my Savior, Jesus Christ. Always faithful to the end as Cory Asbury might say.

A snapshot of where I have been:

After returning home from a mission trip to Australia, which radically shook my paradigm of God and threw him out of the box, of which I put Him in, one of my dearest friends tragically ended his life. This changed everything for me. After following the calling of the Lord, I ended up moving a couple hours away from Jonesboro and living in now what I call my home, Little Rock.

In the last 6 months of living there I have had a blast, I got a job as server and bartender, I was able to be close to my best friend who is probably the best part of me, and I have become a part of a church that shares the same heart that I have for the world.

But for the last month, my heart has ached, and I have found myself falling into a deep pit of what I thought was unknown despair, yet after much prayer and mentoring I'm realizing it was more of a pit I dug for myself.

There are two things I have seen in my life:

1. I put hope in people not in God

2. I have lived a right life yet have not lived in deep righteousness

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I have believed in healing and help for people who did not receive it. I believed people were inherently better than they actually are, and when they fall, I become uncontrollably disappointed.

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I granted myself "grace"...I allowed my life to be permissible yet not beneficial for my total life. As Poet Ezekiel would say a right-ish life instead of a righteous life.

So here's where I stand, in a life always changing, yet with eyes directly on my Lord. I can't stop the change, but I can adapt.

The Gift

The Gift

Open your ears and open your eyes; put out your dainty hands and take a hold of mine. For, I want to lead you, and I want you to follow.

Open your ears and open your eyes; put out your dainty hand and take a hold of mine. For I have a gift I want to give you. This is a gift from above to you below. Use this gift liberally and tell everyone you know, who the Giver was.

Open your ears and open your eyes; put your dainty hands and take a hold of mine. Your carnal mind cannot receive the gift I now pour on thee. A gift for the masses, a gift for just one, to be harnessed and shared with everyone.

Open your ears and open your eyes; put out your dainty hands and take a hold of mine. I'll speak to you in your terms. Be a mother to the motherless, a father to the fatherless. Remove your stereotypes and give My gift like I am watching.

Open your ears and open your eyes; put your dainty hands and take a hold of mine.
LOVE.

Emily Gnagey
10-13-09

What is worship?

I believe it's John Piper who says, " Missions exist because worship doesn't." I think that's a great point, and a great quote considering those two things are what make my heart beat. I love worship and I love missions. Missions is easy to understand, you give hope to anyone who needs it by sharing the hope you have in Christ...In the art world that would be like realism. But when we start talking about worship it becomes more abstract, and even maybe a little non-objective. The definitions of worship aren't great, its people's version of how they worship. But I don't think that's what worship is.

I was reading in Revelation 19 and in verses 9 and 10 it says this.

Then the angel said to me, "Write 'Blessed are those who are invited to the wedding supper of the Lamb!' " And he added, "These are the true words of God"

At this I fell at his feet to worship him. But he said to me, "Do not do it! I am a fellow servant with you and with your brothers who hold to the testimony of Jesus. Worship God! For the testimony of Jesus is the spirit of prophecy."

I believe this is what worship is. And there are three points that I see, as I take a look at this passage.

1. BE AT THE WEDDING SUPPER!

This should be the obvious, but to truly worship God, we must know him intimately and know for sure that when Christ comes back and takes His bride, we are a part of that group. We must embody the spirit of a member of the Bride of Christ.

2. INVITE THOSE AROUND YOU TO BE AT THE WEDDING FEAST AS WELL.

It doesn't necessarily say that here, but I believe that is the implication. The time is short tell everyone you know about that hope you have in Christ and make sure they are sitting at the head table of the wedding feast with you and all the other believers.

3. WORSHIP GOD!

This is one of the most important parts of this verse. As I read about John falling to worship at the feet of the angel and the angel saying, "get up" I realized we as Christians do this all the time. We worship the things of God, but in our prideful service worship, we forget to just admire God and fall at his feet. Think about it, why do you love worship? It's the feeling you get when you are in the presence of God, isn't it? I submit that it is not worship, its a part of worship, and a part of God, but not true worship. We worship the emotions we get when sing. No! Worship is a lifestyle of daily(every moment of the day) gift of bestowing glory to God, because "His name and His renown are the desires of my heart." - Isaiah 26:8.


This is what I say. What do you think?

Insane.

Has America lost their mind, you know the world is going down hill when Barack Hussein Obama wins the Nobel Peace Prize. For me this is the straw to break the camel's back. How long will the world look on this guy as their savior? Notice I don't capitalize savior, because he's no one's savior, he's an arrogant man who says nice words and does absolutely no good for our economy. The U.S. failed when they elected him president, and the the Nobel Peace Prize committee failed by giving him this. Insane.

What peace has he brought to the world? That was the question streaming the Internet today, there answer went something like this, "It's not whether he has created peace, but that he wants peace." Bull Crap! I want peace too, so where's my prize? What they were really trying to do was fly in the face of George Bush, "Who only brought violence." Insane.

Well, I guess I can see why he would win, with people like, Nelson Mandela, Doctor's Without Borders, The United Nations Peacekeeping force, Mother Teresa, Martin Luther King Jr., and The Red Cross as his predecessors. Since BHO is so up to par with these peacekeepers. Ridiculous! What a mockery a shame for those who went before him. What a mockery of the Nobel Peace Prize. Insane.

Giving this to our President, is like giving Heisman to a dedicated football fan. It would NEVER happen. He said he was "humbled." Insane.

(I was going to write about a word from Revelation, and maybe soon I will, but I coudn't not blog about this)

What is man that you are mindful of him

Here's my life right now:

Work
School
Church
Church Work
Worship
School
Work
School
Work
depression.

The monotony of life has set in and has brought a slight depression. My dear friends the Wixted's are moving away, and now I'm left in the town I despise, with few around me. I have decided not to make anymore friends because it hurts to bad to lose them.

Spiritually I'm bi-polar. My struggles consume on some days in which I say basically, so what God I'm hurting, why not sin...I know this is wrong, but it truly is what I think. Or I have days when I feel like life is so good, I can't stand it. The Lord in the recent years have given me a heart of a visionary, and sometimes I glimpse the moment my life will move on. But for now, I trudge, and in trudging, and falling, and getting up, one day I will stand in the glory of God. Tonight I'm not a well done faithful servant, but one day, I will. For Your glory, I stand. For Your glory, I get back up. For Your glory, I will try again, to be the woman you have created me to be.

okay so I had absolutely no time on the trip to blog...sorry to anyone who tried to keep up with it. I am in TX again. There is too much to even write about in one blog, but I must say it was an amazing thing to share hope to the hopeless, watch miracles take place, and watch scales fall of the eyes of the spiritually blind.

I hate sin, I hate that I have compromised my faith because of sin, and I hate that I didn't realize it until this trip. It is my new found desire to never compromise my beliefs for the feelings of other people. The challenge to defeat sin started the moment I said I hated it, in fact, it got harder to not compromise, than when I didn't recognize my sin. I could preach this, but I won't, because no one reads this blog anyway...

So, I'll be home on Sunday...stories to come...

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This is the day that the Lord had made, I will rejoice and be glad in it.

Our MA's got in yesterday. It looks like we have a really solid group of men and women ready to touch Uganda.

The Lord has really been stretching me in my prayer life. I feel like I should be up before the missionaries, MA's and even the project director, to be praying for the day, those I'm around, and for the spirit of God to fall consistently on us. The difficult part is the getting up. After that it's all gravy....The other thing is, coffee is sparse. That is excruciating.

We had a mock severe weather storm this morning at 6:05 to practice our safety skills. NEXT...

Alright, if your cool enough to keep up with this...mom ;) , know that I'm so thankful for the prayers.

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